right, so i have nothing much to blog about.

except that maybe DAN is becoming a little more humane. she smiled and asked if i have learnt anything from itp. hmmm...

and, i visited meh at DHL ytd! wahaha! :D great to see dumb again! it once again reminded me of the 9 days left. euphoria.

okays, 3 paragraphs is way short to make a blog entry, so the following is my DNA. (saw it at one of the girlfriends' blog and i think its fun) :]

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go on, say that i've got nothing else better to do.

why does the timetabling (word exists?) just gets worse and worse? gosh. initially monday was splendid as school only starts at 2PM.

BUT, now its 9AM. wtf!?? with a three-hour break leh.

kns.

however, to make myself feel calm again, all i have to do is to glance at the countdown timer!

15 days left! down from the 40plus days we started off with.. BRILLIANT *^^*

i am feeling very bored & tired. and i have ulcers all over in my mouth. it hurts like hell! i cant talk & i cant eat & im feeling very pathetic. so i decided to edit some photos to while away my time. ^^

however, halfway through all that editing, i suddenly feel like sleeping. (gosh, im so weird)

so i'll just post whatever i have done.

not nice though.

ahhh, whatever.

&& no more the same lecture group! which sucks!

btw, i just hate it when those joss sticks burn and the smoke gets into your eyes! that was exactly what happened this morning at brighthill..

PHOTOS; part one

mad-ah-mad's birthday cake from swensens

with candles

the pretty & sweet birthday girl

blowing the candles

cutting the cake

hard-rock fruit pieces from the cake

dry ice

omg.

shit man.

initially i thought my timetable was good...

...until i saw other dba year 3 classes' timetables.

gees.

i realised mine sucks.

cos i got 2 more modules.

ugh.

work later.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

there must be a word or phrase to describe my feelings now. but i dont know it. sadness? perhaps. or even disappointment. im not sure, really.

i cant believe after dragging it for so long, we have come to nothing. it may be something to someone, but its nothing to us. at least, to me. perhaps im not in the position to comment so much about this whole thing but i feel like a fool.

im helpless now. and so are you. the both of us. we share the same views about the current situation.

we know that there's nothing we can do. on the other hand, we cant just sit there and do nothing. there must still be a glimmer of hope somewhere.

i get very irritated and flustered.

AFUCKINGWHOLELOTOFBULLSHIT&CRAP

im lost! & i need help. we need help.

fuck i dont understand why someone is given the opportunity when we cant get it. is this called life?

or is it mere racism?

just bcos we are of a different skin colour as you are?

and that only people of your race can do this best?

im thoroughly disappointed.

but maybe i should have known better. its kinda obvious during the confrontation that day. we should have seen it coming.

SIGH

i have no mood to continue. i dont know whats the next step.

right now, im afraid of what the future holds. one after another, these news have made me exhausted. i need to break away.

just pray...

i was thinking how i can solve the problem. its hard. when people ask about mum, how do i go about explaining things? shit i need an answer.

& the thing that determines our future was discussed today. i dont know exactly what that brings us to, but at least, its something :]

tuesday

i quite admire people working in a bank. bcos i think they're good looking. HA HA! either that, or that they dress very nicely. & it brightens my mood to see well-dressed people :]

wednesday

dinner at MS pizza hut with KATHY IFFAH SIEWHOON FELINA VERALYN SABRINA WEILI MADELINE YISIEW AUDREY MELISSA GRACE VALENTINA YONGLING XIUZHEN. long list of people.. it was mad-ah-mad's sixteenth birthday! :] & im very very happy to see four generations of CL together. it's like as if i've accomplished something great in life. HA!

service at MS pizza hut was fabulous! thumbs up to waiter herman! truly deserved the five bucks tips.. && does pizza hut play birthday songs?? ^^

talked at esplanade till eleven plus and took the last bus home. gosh.

thursday

one aunty came for interview & let me tell you her story; poor aunty..

her two sons dont want to look after her! and her husband passed away. and she's about 50 plus, near 60. and she had an accident recently so she was limping around. just string them together and you'll get a tragic tale.

WTF! i cant stand her sons! whatever happened to filial piety?? perhaps, her sons have got their own stories to tell but i still think its very wrong.

anyhow, i will NEVER leave my dad alone or whatsoever. its an extremely bastard thing to do, i think :]

friday

boring day

saturday

lunch with aunts & cousins at CS billy bombers.

cycling at pasir ris park with PEISI AIMEE SHA YIXIN. & dinner at mcdonalds (plus KATHY). HA! even though class bbq was at pit 39?! but i feel damn awkward la. very very weird..

wanted to slack at starbucks but no space. almost settled at coffeebean but we thought better to get half-price cakes at cafecartel! hahaha. losers..

talked alot. about sex and all (rather loudly). HA HA HA!! marriages, etc... anyway, sha offered to sponsor cigarettes and the girls actually dont mind. omg.. one puff is ok but i seriously hope they wont get hooked on smoking! o.O

sunday

fuckedupday. cos i have to sleep, tidy the house, do ironing, etc... & bro just pushed me against a wall out of anger! FUCK. seriously shit to get a violent brother. FUCKFUCKFUCKla. and work's tmr. more FUCK. lol.

*photos soon :]

i feel that it has been a long time since we had dinner together. & it feels good. :] i love weekends. i love my dad & brother.

& I MISS SISTERS LIKE CRAZY!!

highlights;

tuesday

i received my pay. though it was a measly three-hundred plus. still, its money.

the paragon building shook for a few seconds. i was shocked. and later, via some dumb, got to know that it was an earthquake.

supplier kept calling up to ask for payment & i had to lie that accounts girl, JIN is out. i kept lying & she just kept calling. finally, out of frustration, she asked for JIN's mobile number and i gave. cos she said "i dont want to keep disturbing you ok. i cant seem to get her and she promised to pay up. the amount is due since last year!" - JIN scolded me lor, what else? (but not in a scold-scold way, just scold) anyways, I DIDNT KNOW ABOUT IT!!

i was checking mail when the director, DAN, came (from behind)! sarcastically, she said i was doing MSN. wtf! she blind or what? then she was like "no personal work in the office!" ohhs whatever, practically everyone in the office access their mail. and i dont mean outlook express ok? like yahoo, hotmail, gmail, and all. so whats her problem?

wednesday

demoralized by the results. damnit! came as a shock and was feeling quite down. outrageous gpa!



thursday

meet up at cafecartel with peisi, aimee & yixin :] spent 3 solid hours gossiping & eating. saw ting too! and i got a free bus ride home..



friday

damn tired. i think i can sleep forever. work again tmr :[

?!!

:]

birthday!

happy family

i really hate those tai-tai people. they think they're rich, so everyone must listen to them. and they think they're right all the time.which is totally ridiculous. but thats life anyways.

few days ago, i was getting something at the basement of paragon when this woman, in front of me, told the cashier to do up a "please queue here" sign so that the queue would not be all over the place. wells, thats something i can accept but the dumb cashier didnt respond and that tai-tai got angry.

she started scolding the cashier. then her daughter was like telling her mum to stopand all that cos there was a long queue, she just said "the world can wait!" -.-

today, i was buying sushi from the marketplace. and this tai-tai in front of me was buying lots & lots of stuff. then the cashier saw her taking out her stuff from the basket so slowly, and told her, "can i key in that (pointed to my sushi) first? cos its only 1 piece."

immediately, i can sense something not right. the tai-tai shouted "hello, cant you see that im right here? standing in front of you? it doesnt matter how many pieces she has, cos if she's in a rush, she can let me know. she has a mouth, she can tell me! and that would be a totally different story!"

i was thinking, damnit, say until my fault lidat.

tai-tai continued, "its not your job to do that. she can go join other queue if she's rushing for time ok? and you just made me go in a very bad mood. next time dont do that!"

cashier just kept apologising.

i was thinking, its damn awkward la. cos the cashier was trying to be nice by letting me go first but end up, the tai-tai so 'ye man'.

argh, tai-tais are so... ugh! HAHA!

when sis jo recounted the accident, i was once again, reminded of how precious life is. a twist of fate is all it takes; & i wont ever see you again. so let me just tell all the people i love, i love you :]

gossips spilled all over at meh's. its a wonderful feeling :] i always feel comfortable with this group of people. meh ting jo max ql. jw has disappointed me by his absence :[ but since he has already apologised at the tagboard, i shall forgive him. perhaps his friend flying off for a month is of more importance than our annual reunion dinner? which happens once in a year nevertheless, im tremendously touched just to see the 6 of us sitting by the dinner table, sharing mashed potato and coleslaw, tearing at KFC and muching on pizzas.

poly pals, friends forever ;)

p/s. congrats to those who did well for As. :D

XXXXX

i was shocked when tears started to wet my eyes and my face flushed hot. gosh. i thought i was going to cry but i didnt. good for me. the last thing i want is to be seen crying at such events. i calmly made my way to the exit. surprisingly, i was let off easily. perhaps, i was am blessed.

this work week (three) is a busy busy one. finally, i have this feeling time flies. wheeee!! *^^* a third of itp completed. i cant believe it!! :D

got to see the rest of my colleague this week. the merchandising girl, JNY. the accounts girl, JIN. this makes us a girls team! haha. anyways, office politics has started to surface. zZzzz. i hate it. complaints flying all around the office. luckily im seated in a corner, so i dont get to be in the politics web. i just do my work, thats it.

JF came ytd! which was a great thing. not only did he helped to while 30mins away, he also gave lots of advice about ec. goodgood! :]

today, DAN (whos recovering from chickenpox) came and gave me alot alot of work. plus, JIN also gave me alot. like three stacks! woah! lots of pressure!! DAN wants me to go KL! not a day, not 2 days, but a whooping SEVEN days! cos a new branch is opening and she wants me to go on a business trip with her. WOAW WOAW WOAW!

me and the managing director..

anyways, i told JF, he says ok. but gotta ask my dad. i dont think my dad will allow. i dont think i will allow myself either. its too dangerous. cos apparantly, ihave to work till12AM! and its like KL!? surely, the security is XXXX. so i better not take the risk! (although its a golden opportunity. as gold as striking lottery.)

tmr will be a happy day bcos meet up with the gang! we have yet to name ourselves. i will think of a name soon :]