yummy!

yum yum! went to japanese restaurant just now. ya, i know, again right? lolx. it was ok, but not as fantastic as that raffles town club thing. hahax! had ebi tempura set. super full now! =) anyway, it was a treat again. aiyoh, they are really nice people. so pai sae. the 'manager' was very polite, quite handsome too! and my colleagues were like wondering if he had a girlfriend or was married. =X then sham said all the handsome boy taken already. rather true! ^^

going back to school later, around 2 plus. hope my aunt dont come and suan me again.

sian

im so tired. really very tired my my aunt's constant sarcastic remarks. today was one of the worst days ever. firstly, she came to my desk and called me to her desk. i followed. at her desk, she reprimanded me for not doing my work, and accused me of surfing the net. wth! i was helping joseph to copy some data. but i know no matter how i explain, she will not listen. so i didnt bother to. then she told me some personal stuff. on the second occassion, she came over and asked me how to use the fax machine. joseph was like saying she so swa koo, dont even know how to use the fax machine. to save her damn face, she said she was high-tech. everything is by email, thats the reason why she didnt know how to operate the fax machine. *rubbish! i helpfully taught her, and when the document was faxed over, she asked how to confirm if it was successful. i told her to listen for the beep and wait for 'transmission success' to appear on the screen. but she was like so blur so i went over to help. but by then, the screen was cleared and she told me she didnt manage to catch any beep sound. *stupid idiot! i just shook my head, indicating i-am-not-sure-what-to-do-next. then joseph came and asked if my aunt needs a report. she was like 'ya, ya. i need.' and turned to me 'you see la, got report one. dont anyhow say listen to the beep sound. where got accurate? people still know how to print out.' joseph then pressed some buttons and a report came out. then maurice came. my aunt told him that i asked her to listen to the beep sound. she was phrasing her words such that it sounds like im a retard. a complete fool. an idiot. *fark off! much later, she came and handed me some stuff to give my mum. then she saw lots of tidbit on the shelves, along the corridor. she opened every single one and tasted them. she offered me one. i declined, saying that there was already one box on my desk. she was like 'wah! you so selfish ar? put one whole box at your desk.' i replied 'no la, cause got two boxes mah. then one put at the shelf, one put at my desk lor. for us (our team) to share one.' she didnt believe (as usual) and kept telling her colleagues that im very selfish. keeping all the good stuff to myself, not sharing. *whatever, fat ass! what she didnt know was that the box was put there by my team members. cause i am only a temporary staff. so they just shu bian put the tidbits on my desk. cause it wasnt very nice to put at their desks. if not people will think thats their personal stuff. but if it was placed on my desk, people can just take and go freely, without having to worry about taking other people's stuff.

sigh. sorry. just venting my anger. i dont know how long i can survive if i go on like that.

how can i look on the bright side of life when the dark side is always facing me?

HAIRIANTO'S BIRTHDAY IS ON 11th APRIL!
(i think he'd be glad i do this. heez!)

lalala

yay! im so happy for my guides! they all made it to this year's national day parade! im so super proud of them! =D really, its like a dream come true. all you npcc and ncc people watch out, cause guides is coming up!

life's so bored nowadays. anyway, i think there was a problem with blogger just now cause i was unable to access it for a long time. =( at the library now. passing time. later gonna meet soulmate at 715pm. we've got a secret mission to carry out! ;) peisi: we'll call it plan A k? heehee.

as im typing this, yanto called and asked when was my birthday?! weird anyway, he said he was at pavilion. so im gonna make my way there and meet him. adios for now! ^^

whatever

[today]
damn! my aunt's contract has been extended for three more damn months! ARGH!! sian. bloody hell!

oh, i just realised that the 'wisdom tooth' IS NOT a wisdom tooth! stupid me. i think it was just an ulcer there. whatever. why did that ulcer had to grow there anyway? =S

[sunday]
was reading the sunday times when i saw this black thing on the floor. my heart skipped a beat. but, chey it was a paper clip. =X thought it was another of that irritating bug. spent the day finishing up the rest of MVP valentine. cried throughout all 22 vcds. ='( but it was a really nice and touching story. the rest of the day was spent teaching my bro chinese. =) although my chinese my seriously cannot make it, still tried my best. yay! an achievement!

[saturday]
weather slightly better, but i fell sick. ugh. there was like something stuck at my throat and my voice was really hoarse. bro said i must have choked on an apple and my voice is breaking. -.-" at night, when i was watching 'guess 4', this really big bug flew and stung my toes. i tried to shook it away but i guess the bug thought it was on a roller coaster or something. so it clung on to its dear life. i started crying and slapping around violently. i think the bug played enough and flew off. gosh! what a night. from that moment i was paranoid about black stuff.

[friday]
news reported that PSI was 81. i suppose it has reached a dangerous level? anyway, the whole day was very warm. feeling rather bored. =( managed to finish a storybook. catch up on my sleep.

yay!

anyway, ive changed the background music. think this song is really cute! >.< and ive also added a little something up there and down there. up there - some scrolling grids which i think is rather cute. down there - this really nice counter with strawberries on it. as for the link ive added to view my photos, its more or less crap. ha! cause it incomplete. gonna do it soon. promise.

today's a real quiet day at work. firstly, because maurice is in bangkok. his company sponser. so good! *jealous* so he brought his girlfriend and mum there. do hope he remembers to buy a little something for me! heez. secondly, karen is on urgent leave. not sure what happen. joseph is on medical leave. wahahaha! huo gai! nanny nanny poo poo~ he's suffering from a not-so-mild-and-not-so-severe case of influenza. so my department is left with me and sham. i like. =) and sham doesnt have anything for me to do currently. so i've been surfing since 9am. heehee.

as im writing this, im also having my lunch. eating cafeteria's spaghetti. surprisingly, its very nice worx. better than those i cook at home. =x the sauce is very tomato-ey. sweet and sour at the same time. i like. =)

heex.

gosh! i got this really terrible dream last night. u might want to call it nightmare instead.

i was with aimee and this hamster. the hamster is a pet both of us share. one day, we were carrying this hamster and we were at downtown east. then aimee suggested to go back hai sing, cause there was like an event going on there. but it was already very late at night, probably 11 plus. the security guard said that no pets were allowed in the school premises, so we left the hamster outside school, at the carpark. aimee then told me it wasnt a very wise idea to leave the hamster outside, so i was supposed to look after it while aimee went back to school. when aimee didnt return after a really long time, i decided to go into the school. i found this plastic bag and hide the hamster inside. then i ran into the school. saw aimee standing at the foyer looking at something, there were lots of policeman and an ambulance there. aimee knows that im afraid of blood so she beckon for me to go away. finally, when aimee came to look for me, she told me that someone has been killed.

this nightmare sort of reminded me about the chinatown incident. me, sha and yx were in the same group for an english project. while taking snapshots of chinatown, we came across this woman being hacked by a man carrying a butcher knife. i was so scared that i was tearing and my hands were cold. fact: i do not dare to look at blood, accident, etc... when i woke up this morning, i couldnt halp but keep thinking about that scene. *shivers*

anyway, im going to have a part time job soon! meaning, i work and study at the same time. sham's daughter needds tuition in maths, so im gonna coach her. luckily its sec 1 work. ^^

anyway, just FYI, ive compiled this list

poly
[np] [banking] [tailun]
[np] [mass communications] [aishah]
[sp] [applied science] [alrina]
[sp] [banking] [hafiz]
[sp] [biotech] [kangyong]
[sp] [business administration] [me, peisi, meiqi]
[sp] [electronics, computer and communications engineering] [junjie]
[tp] [biomedical science] [gary, hilda]
[tp] [business] [adelene]
[tp] [interior design] [yongling]
[tp] [tourism] [yanwan, joyce, aimee, xuemei]

jc
[mjc] [yixin, kathy, zhijun, anting, cecilia, kalis, adeline, joseph, adrian]
[tjc] [nicole]
[tpjc] [yanto, leeling, michelle]

yay!

yay! i got into s'pore poly biz ad! same as my darling soulmate! MWARRKSS! [xoxo] really cant wait till school starts! XD

painful siaz..

IM SERIOUSLY PISSED. my aunt came to look for me again. sigh. my mum promised not to tell her, but she did. there was this cafeteria girl who thinks my aunt is fierce. so one day, when she realised i was my aunt's niece, she didnt dare to bully me. whatever. my mum actually told my aunt that she had a bad reputation at work! what in the hell had gone wrong in the process of communication. so my aunt thought i went round spreading that my aunt is fierce and all. i mean if she isnt guilty, why must she be so sensitive about people's comments? many times i told myself that no, i cant tell my mum anything about my aunt. but on every occassion, i just blurted everything out. and she promised to zip her mouth! whatever. i guess u really can trust no one in this damn world. ='(

ouch. theres something growing at the back of my teeth. think its wisdom tooth or something like that. that very last one in there. its so painful that i cant chew! =x can only use my right set of teeth. its probably the first time i hate eating. argh.

anyway, im counting down...
1 day to know where im posted to
4 days to good friday
7 days to my aunt's farewell, then im FREE!
12 days to see my darling soulmate
39 days till i get the hell outta moto =)

class gathering

yummy! my boss treat us to a japanese restaurant at raffles country club. rich boss. the food was heavenly. maybe because i already like japanese food. remember those times when soulmate and i sat at the staircase and ate sushi. hahax! anyway, i ordered this grilled beef thingy that has a japanese name i couldnt pronounce. it was really nice. then there were other more common food, tempura, steamed egg, sushi, udon. too bad i dont dare to eat raw food. argh. or i wouldve enjoyed it more. then the waitress was super funny. she recommended dessert and we all thought she said sashimi ice cream, but it was sesame ice cream. -.-" after that boss said we could go to a cafe! =) but all my colleagues very hardworking, so we went back to office. actually cannot blame them cause we left at 1145 and returned at 230. joseph bought more ice cream for us. it was nice. but because HE bought it. YUCK!

OMG! should have gone to school today! SY zai na li! argh. sian. stuck at work. damn it man! cannot see shuai ge. =(

yep. had class gathering yesterday. a bit sian la. but at least got ppl turn up. sigh. rather disappointed. at first only aimee n i was there (pathetic) den later maurise came, den yanto, adeline n ming wei. darling girls all present! =D ate at long john, play pool. ade had to go halfway. ='( but never mind la. we understand. =) den maur went off. left me n aimee. we like two idiots playing pool, with the guys. went home. ugh, what a 'class' gathering.

yippee!

yippeee~ im SOOOO happy today! nope, not bcuz my aunt is sick again, but bcuz joseph got into trouble!! hahax! i know im being men but dont blame me. he sux! well, sham is on leave today, so i sat at her desk. then jos came along, trying to find some impt document that is stored at sham's place. he didnt where it was kept, but i did. of course, i wouldnt be so kind hearted and tell him, i jux zipped my mouth. so he went on searching for the document until finally he gave up and gave sham a call. but sham didnt want to answer! wahahahaha!! =D then finally, when sham answered, she told him that i know where it was kept! *grinz* so he came back again. i acted like i dont know what in the world he was talking about. when i saw that he was really anxious, i nod my head and pointed to the LOCKED cabinet. it was in there. but too bad, the key is with sham! lolx. he tried all means of picking the lock, but all were failed attempts. i tried to feel so sorry for him, but deep inside, i was laughing like ive never laghed before! omg! now he's in deep trouble cuz he cant find the documents for reference and he has to handle a case. too bad, idiot! I WON! =)

anyway, went to eastpoint yesterday with kathy n iffah. den went to this particular shop. the salesman was damn lousy. HE ACCUSED US OF STEALING! how could he? i mean, one look at us, you know that we're those kind who will not steal. whats wrong with that man? idiot. den so suay, that was a clothes shop, and i had my home clothes inside my bag at that time. i gave him that stare and explained that that was my own clothing. he let us off and kept apologising. ^-^

haix

haix. dont know why. but whenever i 'organise' a class gathering, no one would want to turn up. its rather sad, i know. but what can i do? im just a pathetic trying to get her ex-classmates to meet up cuz she misses them. yet... sigh.

anyway, ppl of 4e4'04. if u're interested, do turn up on thurs, 17th mar 05. 6pm, tampines mrt guardian. really hope to see ppl turning up. but if they dont, its ok. i understand perfectly.

been taking lots of half days. really sick of my job already. went back to school on mon to more or less clean up the gg room, so that it is ready to be painted on wed. look out ppl, a brand new look for our room when school starts! ^-^

nobody understands me.

nobody understands. ok, other than peisi, who else? no one. no one in this freaking whole wide whole understands me. jean sux! im not even working for her. just because she's my aunt doesnt mean that she can make use of me. c'mon. i cant even have breakfast before i start work? and im waiting for the printing to be done. in the meantime, i just munch on some stuff. is that wrong?! wad the hell. she sux. my mum doesnt even understand. motorola is so full of politics. I HATE IT!!! why must people put on a smile when deep down inside, they're hurt. why must people pretend to like someone when deep inside, there is hatred. i dont understand. people just want face. they dont do what they like. they do wad they're suppose to. is this called life? im beginning to think if i've spent my holidays wisely. they just feel that it is right to be a hypocrite. everyone here is just putting on a mask. no one is real. i really miss those times in school. no matter who u like or dislike, u still have this bunch of real friends that will go through thick n thin with u. but not now. everyone has their own separate life. we seem to be drifting apart. me n my soulmate can only communicate through sms now. because we're so busy at work. and by the time we settle down at home, we're so tired that all we want to do is just sleep, and wake up tomorrow hoping that we feel much better. i miss the past. but its all the past. nothing i do now can turn back time.

i miss those times when our class sing happy ending together. and when gabriel brings his guitar to school. we can all sing graduation together. i miss those times when we were in the dnt studio. everyone rushing to get their projects done, cuz we want A1! and yes, we made it. 89.7% of the dnt pupils got dist. =) i miss those times when mish crack jokes during phy. and mr yap would cock his eyebrow. i wud never forget that funny look. i miss those times when we have pe with mr alsagoff. the rugby that we play. the amount of dirt. even our pespiration is sweet. in the midst of all those backstabbing, joking, laughing, learning, studying, revising, fighting, we learn teamwork, cooperation. all those bittersweet memories. i love 4e4'04. i really do. missing you forever and always.

sorry..

well, i guess i have to apologise to nic. read her blog just now and she feels its not right for people to read others' blog without permission. i dont know if she is aware that i know her url but ive already remove it from my links. sorry, if you're reading this. didnt know that you would get so mad. i dont want to have more enemies than friends so i hope that she can forgive me. =)

anyway, ive added a forum link cuz however hard i try, i cant find any tagboards or doodleboards. but i still hope to communicate with people. so you can either type something there or visit my guestbook. thanks! =D

I'll stand by you

oh, why do you look so sad? tears are in your eyes. come on, come to me now and don't be ashame to cry. let me see you through cuz i've seen the dark side too. when the night falls, you don't know what to do. but nothing you confess, can make me love you less. i'll stand by you. so if you're mad, get mad. don't hold it all inside. come on and talk to me now. what have you got to hide? i get angry too. well, i'm a lot like you. when you're standing at the crossroads and you dont know which path to choose, let me come along cuz even if you're wrong, i'll stand by you and not let anybody hurt you.

damnit

damnit! lost my ez-link card today.

yay!

yay! im sooo happy today cuz my aunt is sick. not juz any other aunt but the one working at Motorola! =D dun say im mean, but her presence really stress me out! =p

pissed.

yup. totally pissed today. wanted to take the afternoon off earlier so that i can meet soulmate to do the JAE thing together. was supposed to leave my office at 1215 latest but it started raining, i mean pouring. ros said that even God didnt want me to go. well, if God says so, what more can i say? =x so i started helping ros pack the room. at 1230, the rain still hasnt stop. i dialled soulmate's number. 'hey! sorry but i still cant leave the office.' she said it was ok n that she didnt mind, but nonetheless, i still feel guilty.

just when the rain stopped at 1330, this man from the facilities department came and asked me a whole bunch of questions about my o levels and the courses that i want. then he started talking about entrepreneurship and stuff. interrogating me like mr policeman! he went on and on and finally at 1400, he was done! i grabbed my bag and was about to dash off when my aunt called. 'eh, u are still at the office? ok, u stay dere and i'll come over.' DARN! it was bad enough for me not to meet soulmate. i dont wanna be late for guides as well. minutes later, she arrived at started telling me off. sha said that i was inefficient, complains too much, blah, blah, blah... to h*** with her! but i wasnt about to breakdown right under her nose, so i put on a brave front, acting as a shield as her sarcastic remarks came shooting at me like poisoned arrows. and let me tell you, it wasnt the least bit easy trying to present a smile and cry deep inside at the same time. when i went out of the office, i couldnt hold it any longer. i mean, why cant she see all the good that ive done instead of picking on me all the time? even my colleagues and supervisor treat me MUCH BETTER! by the way, the rain hasnt stop, and it only made me more depressed. if not for my soulmate, i wouldve cried all the way to school. ='(

when i entered hai sing, my eyes were slightly puffy. concerned people kept asking if i was alright. i nod my head, although i felt really sick. just when i thought this was turning out to be my worst day ever, soulmate called to say that the dateline for JAE submission was extended to mon, 6pm. yay! one burden off my mind.

DARLING PEISI, U JUST MADE MY DAY! =)

relieved

phew! im so relieved now! just wanna shout out to the whole world that ive got the bestest supervisors in the whole wide world. cuz my aunt is really stressing me out. always nagging and lecturing me. whereas my colleagues and supervisors are super nice! dey really treat me lyk their precious babies! =)

SHAM AND MAURICE ROX MY SOCKS!

confused

sigh. im dead confused right now. to go poly or jc? this question has been haunting me from the moment i got my results. 11 & 14. the in-between score. n stupid govt only give us pathetic 5 days to decide our future. for ppl who already more or less decide on where they wanna go, this is just a matter of what course they are choosing. and as for ppl lyk me, to go to a jc is possible, but at the same time, we've missed out on the first 3 months. sigh. wadever. i think i'll let fate decide?

anyway, i forgot to bring my work pass today, so i got detained at the security. had to call my supervisor, sham. so that she can sign me in. wad a bad start.

hmm, just in case those kay po ppl are reading this, u may want to know the breakdown of my results. so here goes,
eng = b3
e.maths = a2
comb.science = a2
comb.humans = b3
chinese = a2
dnt = a2
poa = b3

good or bad? i dont know. my parents were pleased. =) but my bro wasnt. my aunties, uncles, colleagues, friends, blah blah blah all think that my results were ok. ok as in quite good already la. but whatever. i dont think so. could have scored better in some areas. but whatever it is, gotta be thankful to God. fear not, im not transforming into a christian or catholic. but i just feel that i prayed to God and am glad that He has answered my prayer.